metamorphosis from a bigot to satanist

I started out life raised as a southern baptist in Texas of all places. I was your typical bigoted conservative christian god fearing and gay hating, I didn’t break from the shackles of indoctrination till well into my junior/senior year when I began thinking of converting to Judaism as a more sound theology with less holes than Christianity but this I too realized had holes (Sumerian predating mythologies, epic of Gilgamesh and other stories). So with nothing left in theology I became a basic atheist. Part 2 I began an interest in philosophy reading the god delusion, the Satanic Bible and other various books, and found a better sense of who I am for it moving me further along in my ambitions and inspiring me to create my current master piece of my rendition of Baphomet.